从sem 3一开始就充满挑战了。呵呵。不过还好上天安排了solution给我去学习。让我在机缘巧合之下, 参加了生活营。我不知道那影响力可以带给我多久, 可是到现在它一直引领着我的心态往好的方向去。要学会与各式各样的人相处。这一直在关键时刻提醒我。有时候, 某些生活习惯上的不一样, 我不认同, 不跟随其实并不代表我讨厌。
之前, 我觉得自己蛮固执的 , 一直很渴望有知己 , 即使不在同一个城市里也无妨。可是当渴望开始影响自己的情绪, 何必捉着这渴望不放呢? 后来, 开始明白 , 每一个人生阶段里, 遇到的每一位都是缘分。只要是真心对待, 即使到最后分道扬镳了 , 也无遗憾不是吗?
心里孤独才是真正的孤单, 只有心理放下了, 才会觉得轻松。换一种人生方式, 让每一天更轻松自在。
可能是知道自己因为地区关系, 无法找到一份离家近的工作, 就比别人多了一份惆怅。离家一年, 觉得自己一直在漂泊, 因为无法住在家里的关系吗? 心诺是没有栖息的地方, 到哪里都是流浪。不过现在慢慢的调整自己的心态, 我是年轻人, 就应该要有年轻人的活力, 是受到慈济的影响吗? 我想是吧。真的很感恩我有妈妈哥哥姐姐帮我撑起的一片天。在那片天空下我很幸福。
让心静下来, 才能一步一步更稳的往前走。其实以前每次参加活动,接触新事物。心理是害怕的, 因为自己去嘛。就像跆拳道。后来, 后悔的是没有早点接触。哈哈哈。希望自己可以记住这一份感觉, 然后带着勇气去到任何想去的地方。
你好啊, 五月。我有预感, 这是个美好的五月天。因为心理充满了幸福感。
2016年4月19日星期二
third week of sem 3..
New sem new challenge , new subjects are harder than before...life also getting harder...
I never feel so useless like this until last sem break ...when my mom's job is not that a lot compare before...but she never late to give me money , she never late to pay my hostel fee...yah ! Everything is still same like before..the amount of pocket money is still the same..the different thing is my heart , be a daughter and a student at the same time..i know how many year study for physio.. Am i still want my mommy to give me money for the degree life also ? I hv my new goals..i know how is going on ..i know what i am doing...
I am not cut all the activities ..i want my uni life be fun also..but i dont think eating the expensive food is very fun and it doesnt means uni life very fun with the expensive food...Fun is depends on who u go with not the food..i hang out with my friend and the cafeteria food..i though it's the good way to maintain in my uni life...i still can eat my cheaper food and hang out with my friends also and they still can eat the food they want to eat...
I think is good , but i am wrong...my friends dont think so..i am not understand too , what is the different ? The only thing different is just the food inside the stomach only... i though after i tell my reason to u , u can understand me...but it's seem like not ... the face that show u dont like me eat different food with u guys still there...and about jokes..i know is a jokes...but the jokes is like a salt that putting on my wound...i can accept any jokes but except this..i dont know why i will feel hurt...i know i supposed to laugh at myself and be like not care about that jokes.but i am human being also..if u still dont know what feeling is that , u can imaging people make the jokes on yr weakness , how was the feeling...
I am so sorry for rude or queit or anything that make u feel angry or anything that u feel and i dont know what is that...i apologized to u guys...i just need time ..i can recovery myself...Pu Sa give me these challege , because Pu Sa trust me that i can pass it and blessed me..
I never feel so useless like this until last sem break ...when my mom's job is not that a lot compare before...but she never late to give me money , she never late to pay my hostel fee...yah ! Everything is still same like before..the amount of pocket money is still the same..the different thing is my heart , be a daughter and a student at the same time..i know how many year study for physio.. Am i still want my mommy to give me money for the degree life also ? I hv my new goals..i know how is going on ..i know what i am doing...
I am not cut all the activities ..i want my uni life be fun also..but i dont think eating the expensive food is very fun and it doesnt means uni life very fun with the expensive food...Fun is depends on who u go with not the food..i hang out with my friend and the cafeteria food..i though it's the good way to maintain in my uni life...i still can eat my cheaper food and hang out with my friends also and they still can eat the food they want to eat...
I think is good , but i am wrong...my friends dont think so..i am not understand too , what is the different ? The only thing different is just the food inside the stomach only... i though after i tell my reason to u , u can understand me...but it's seem like not ... the face that show u dont like me eat different food with u guys still there...and about jokes..i know is a jokes...but the jokes is like a salt that putting on my wound...i can accept any jokes but except this..i dont know why i will feel hurt...i know i supposed to laugh at myself and be like not care about that jokes.but i am human being also..if u still dont know what feeling is that , u can imaging people make the jokes on yr weakness , how was the feeling...
I am so sorry for rude or queit or anything that make u feel angry or anything that u feel and i dont know what is that...i apologized to u guys...i just need time ..i can recovery myself...Pu Sa give me these challege , because Pu Sa trust me that i can pass it and blessed me..
2016年2月26日星期五
February 2016
Happy chinese new year...it's the time to gather with family...how busy u r , how far u stay , we will all come back and gather..thanks god , every year also will hv new member ..haha
Every celebration during cny...i was thinking , how great will be if u r still here..really miss u...times flies , it hv been 3 years...but i still miss u...how r u ? This question i keep asking me 3 years ald..
Everyone was talking gather with friends during cny...i really sad about it , i never meet my friends after graduation , seem like no one is remember me...we still will smile to each other , like normal friends...the sadnest thing is they know u r back , they wont contact u ...when u try to contact them , thats a lot of es...
The end of the holiday , i went back to uni...that's something happened in my class..is the sad thing so i dont want to think back...i was very angry , i argue , i scold them..how they can do like this...after we confront , it was affect my mood on saturday..i cant focus to study...it make me think back my secondary school times...make me think back about her , my closed friend before, but she did something i very angry and didnt like , we never talk to each until now , i never meet her after graduated ..i deleted every contact with her..she is totally get out of my life...
But actually no...in my heart she is not...because sometimes it will remind me , i hv broke off the friendship... it still make me unhappy , is a scar..
I tell myself , dont gt the second friend that u cut off the friendship...the feeling i hd felt ald..keep telling myself i can dont like the person , talk about them , angry them , argue with them..remember what r the kind of person r them..but forgot that after every action hv been taken...is ok...maybe will feel i am fake , or something..but i dont want feel the second times again that what i hd experience in secondary school...is really hurt...
Keep smile and move on..
Every celebration during cny...i was thinking , how great will be if u r still here..really miss u...times flies , it hv been 3 years...but i still miss u...how r u ? This question i keep asking me 3 years ald..
Everyone was talking gather with friends during cny...i really sad about it , i never meet my friends after graduation , seem like no one is remember me...we still will smile to each other , like normal friends...the sadnest thing is they know u r back , they wont contact u ...when u try to contact them , thats a lot of es...
The end of the holiday , i went back to uni...that's something happened in my class..is the sad thing so i dont want to think back...i was very angry , i argue , i scold them..how they can do like this...after we confront , it was affect my mood on saturday..i cant focus to study...it make me think back my secondary school times...make me think back about her , my closed friend before, but she did something i very angry and didnt like , we never talk to each until now , i never meet her after graduated ..i deleted every contact with her..she is totally get out of my life...
But actually no...in my heart she is not...because sometimes it will remind me , i hv broke off the friendship... it still make me unhappy , is a scar..
I tell myself , dont gt the second friend that u cut off the friendship...the feeling i hd felt ald..keep telling myself i can dont like the person , talk about them , angry them , argue with them..remember what r the kind of person r them..but forgot that after every action hv been taken...is ok...maybe will feel i am fake , or something..but i dont want feel the second times again that what i hd experience in secondary school...is really hurt...
Keep smile and move on..
2016年1月30日星期六
End of the january...
I had no idea why this week i always in down mood ....no mood to do anything after class...sit down for nothing few hour...can i dont like this ? But luckily , i happy about i can control my emotional very well and not disturb my friends around me...
I cheer up myself but seem like no so useful..i really really thanks my friends who always make jokes and crazy together...the hug is really give me power and feel lovely...i never hug my friends before , now i only now , it's a very lovely thing...
Can i come back faster with fully energy???
I cheer up myself but seem like no so useful..i really really thanks my friends who always make jokes and crazy together...the hug is really give me power and feel lovely...i never hug my friends before , now i only now , it's a very lovely thing...
Can i come back faster with fully energy???
2016年1月26日星期二
almost 1 year stay in KL...
When i was high school time , KL is a place that having all my dream , i hope i can be there faster . I dont have a lot of memory during my school time before...my life was just simple , school - home ! I still remember , the dream at that time is i want to learn music intructment , be a volunteer , travel, have a best friend , active in sports and outdoor game .(i am not good in sport but i really want to try)
Time flies , almost 1 year stay in KL... the feeling is different with my expected .I miss home .is it gt a place combine the city with village in the world? Life is fair , when u lose something , u will gain something. I lose the time together with my family .but i met the friends that can make me happy everyday.
I really learned a lot of things this year. A special year for me. Force myself to be independent and change the way to hide the sad . I was show the sad with wrong way . Am i successful to do that now ? Haha , i think so...i try to control my emotional baik-baik.
Came back from the outbac broga training trip 2 days ago..i was scare at first , i dont want to go even though it is the activiti that i want to try long time ago because of i dont so closed with them . But luckly i ask suggestion from shu hui and xiang. They say show yr YOLO spirit (you only live once ) , do u think it is worth u dont go because of dont have close friend at there? Will u regret u miss a good change ? Finally , i decided to go and i came back with a lot of fun and enjoyed !
BTW , long time didnt join mahsa helping hand ald !
2015年11月27日星期五
new update :相信你值得幸福
在学业，我不出色。在人际关系里，我无法很妥善的对待。好吧，我很差，我承认，我尝试塑造更好的自己，可我需要时间，因为错误，我才能从中学习。你知道吗？其实友情和爱情真的很像，当然如果你并不把它当回事，那就另当别论了。
曾经，我以为，带着希望，期待去对待每一个友情，我会得到我所期待的，我渴望有人可以帮我当好朋友，闺蜜。现在，我知道我错了。有人跟我说过，越大越难交到知心朋友。现在，我理解了。才发现，其实没有人有错，只是她们心里的位置不是你，有一群人住在了你心里，谁都没有错，不关缺点优点的事，只是因为陪他们走过最好的时光不是你，习惯的力量很大。上天安排这样的时间，就从了吧，冥冥中自有安排。
有时候，不是自己不能陪你们熬过难捱的时间。而是，得看对方在第一时间找的人，是不是你？如果他们不给你这个机会，要如何帮忙呢？缺席了你一生里重要的时光，或许是一个问题，也可以不是，因为所有时间里所遇到的人事物都是最好的安排。她们一起度过了５年，感情很好，那如果给我们下一个五年呢？会怎样？我不知道。可以联系的方式有很多，就看你怎么做，这些其实我一直在学习，对不起，请原谅我做的不好，人非圣贤，孰能无过？
学校可以把在不一样地方的人聚在一起，也可以在你毕业的时候，彻底地把你们拆开。或许这一次的分开，跟你以前的毕业真的不一样了，或许你们回家了，或去了更好的地方。就真的分开了。以前的同学，节日假期还可以聚，因为都是同一个地区。
我也有心，你伤心的同时，我也伤心。可你们比较幸运，因为有闺蜜的陪伴。感恩我突然的想通，不需要再去划分，我真的很执着，认定了一件事很难改变，可现在不会了，我要去珍惜身边遇见的每一个人，因为缘分，我们才会遇见，所以要对待每一个人都好。没有其他意思，只是心里的想法。我会继续学习。对不起
曾经，我以为，带着希望，期待去对待每一个友情，我会得到我所期待的，我渴望有人可以帮我当好朋友，闺蜜。现在，我知道我错了。有人跟我说过，越大越难交到知心朋友。现在，我理解了。才发现，其实没有人有错，只是她们心里的位置不是你，有一群人住在了你心里，谁都没有错，不关缺点优点的事，只是因为陪他们走过最好的时光不是你，习惯的力量很大。上天安排这样的时间，就从了吧，冥冥中自有安排。
有时候，不是自己不能陪你们熬过难捱的时间。而是，得看对方在第一时间找的人，是不是你？如果他们不给你这个机会，要如何帮忙呢？缺席了你一生里重要的时光，或许是一个问题，也可以不是，因为所有时间里所遇到的人事物都是最好的安排。她们一起度过了５年，感情很好，那如果给我们下一个五年呢？会怎样？我不知道。可以联系的方式有很多，就看你怎么做，这些其实我一直在学习，对不起，请原谅我做的不好，人非圣贤，孰能无过？
学校可以把在不一样地方的人聚在一起，也可以在你毕业的时候，彻底地把你们拆开。或许这一次的分开，跟你以前的毕业真的不一样了，或许你们回家了，或去了更好的地方。就真的分开了。以前的同学，节日假期还可以聚，因为都是同一个地区。
我也有心，你伤心的同时，我也伤心。可你们比较幸运，因为有闺蜜的陪伴。感恩我突然的想通，不需要再去划分，我真的很执着，认定了一件事很难改变，可现在不会了，我要去珍惜身边遇见的每一个人，因为缘分，我们才会遇见，所以要对待每一个人都好。没有其他意思，只是心里的想法。我会继续学习。对不起
2015年8月16日星期日
To my best friends...
I know u guys feel strange for my behavior ... i dont know how to explain it .... but i just can say is trust me , that's nothing ...how i know ? i heard it....i say sorry to you guys if i make u feel unhappy ....
u all are different from my friend because i learn form u all how to become a friend ....why i said like that ? it's a long story about the past experience ,because i am quiet and u will feel bored if u stay alone with me , so i didnt had very closed friend before and i am not comfidence ...
u give me a feeling that i never feel before that warm , caring and touching.... serious , i will easy touching in small things , but i wont let u know..haha..i am not good in express my emotion ....i am still learning in a friends relationship ...i try to change myself to become the person that i want to be and more talking ...
sorry guys ... if u feel any unhappy and unsatisfied ... sorry to u sincerely ....trust me , that's nothing , dont think too much ... u all are special in my life ....the gift that god give for me ....if got question u can directly ask me and i feel free to answer it ... thanks for reading....bye ....
u all are different from my friend because i learn form u all how to become a friend ....why i said like that ? it's a long story about the past experience ,because i am quiet and u will feel bored if u stay alone with me , so i didnt had very closed friend before and i am not comfidence ...
u give me a feeling that i never feel before that warm , caring and touching.... serious , i will easy touching in small things , but i wont let u know..haha..i am not good in express my emotion ....i am still learning in a friends relationship ...i try to change myself to become the person that i want to be and more talking ...
sorry guys ... if u feel any unhappy and unsatisfied ... sorry to u sincerely ....trust me , that's nothing , dont think too much ... u all are special in my life ....the gift that god give for me ....if got question u can directly ask me and i feel free to answer it ... thanks for reading....bye ....
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